You’ve welcomed a new baby into the world and it’s all rainbows and butterflies, right!? Unfortunately, no. You are struggling with things you don’t understand. Thoughts and feelings you can’t explain. You burst into tears for what seems like no reason. You don’t want to be around people because you just want to be alone. People don’t understand. You can’t put into words to your partner what’s wrong, your family wouldn’t understand, you don’t even understand. Everyday you wake up and hope that today is a good day. You hope you don’t burst into tears over something you can’t control. You tell yourself that what you’re feeling is dumb or crazy, but you just can’t seem to break through that wall. You’re not alone!

This pregnancy was a hard one, so feeling all this stuff is definitely not something I wanted. I couldn’t be down, I have a new baby to take care of! I have a son, husband, house and business to take care of. I had people who wanted to come visit the baby. Truth is, I just wanted to be by myself and cry. Why? I’m not certain. These feelings were not something I understood. I couldn’t tell my husband what was wrong, I couldn’t tell people who wanted to come see the baby I just really didn’t feel like company, I couldn’t even tell myself it was going to be ok. All this was foreign to me. I knew I had to do something or my relationship would hinder, I would break down and things just wouldn’t be ok.

I had to take a big step in asking for help. Some once told me Postpartum Depression is real and it doesn’t discriminate against anyone. It’s ok if it happens to you, but make sure you do what you need to in order to take care of yourself. Ask your doctor for help, do something for you, ask your partner for help so you can get a minute alone, Jan our to your favorite song. Whatever you have to do, do it for you. It’s ok to need help. You’re not alone.