Mama.

This is my mama. Turned mom at 20. For several years she fought through a toxic relationship with our biological dad. I was too little know what was always happening, but as I got a little older I do remember several terrible memories that I pray my kids never experience.

As a young girl, I can say she used to always try to do what was best for me and then for my sister once she came along. After witnessing physical, mental and verbal abuse, I can remember moving homes several times and the drama of joint custody. Of course in the beginning the confusion of going back and forth was always there, but being with mom always made it better. As we grew a little older, the less time we actually spent going back and forth until it stopped. When mom remarried, I got put into a great school (Go Eagles) and she was told by him that people from that school would never amount to anything. I did great! I was in clubs, experienced dances, homecoming court, prom court, friends and happiness. I even gave a speech at graduation, which he got to listen to.

Mom was at everything. She was there at our adoption when I was so upset and confused at why someone wouldn’t fight to keep us. She never missed a band concert, homecoming, prom, anything. She was my friend and cheerleader. I never had to beg for her attention growing up or wonder if she was going to call or see me. Of course like any mother daughter relationship, we’ve had our fare share of ups and downs over the years, but she’s always mom. And she was there for me when others weren’t.

Thank you mom for helping give me a good life as a kid. You helped us find a true dad that made sure we were taken care of and gave us a good home. More importantly you never left us.

I love you always ♥️

Ouch Makena

Pregnancy is such an incredible thing and the medicine that is available now to assist women is amazing. This bad boy has been my lifeline for roughly the past 16 weeks! Inside this box is my weekly injection. Every Monday, I take one for the team and get this painful shot in my hips. This is my “help stay pregnant shot” and I will rely on it for the next few weeks in addition to a sewn cervix.

The pain this shot gives is one like I’ve never felt before. It’s breath taking. Each week seems worse than the week before and my hips are constantly sore from getting the injections. These things make you feel like they are injecting some fiery substance and sucking out your hip all at the same time. Also, sadly, I’ve been having skin reactions to the shot so I’m left with a huge rash, itchy skin and a huge lump. Once I get in my car I start to tear up from the pain and I can’t help but think about how it helps my little girl stay inside just a little longer. The pain I’m feeling is only temporary and I’m willing to do whatever it takes for her. Being a mom, sometimes you have to make sacrifices. I’d sacrifice pretty much anything for my kids. And this is no exception.

Would I recommend this shot to others? If they have risks like I do, then absolutely. Of course I know it’s like any other medicine and isn’t 100% guaranteed to help.

As moms, we go through so much physically and mentally to have a child. Some mommas face difficult obstacles that other moms may not. People ask me how I’m doing and I notice my response lately is tired. Pregnancy takes a toll on women so check on them often. I know I’m not alone when I say it’s difficult to sleep, it’s hard to get comfortable and the further along you get the more things don’t fit. Sadly I’m at a point where my wedding ring doesn’t fit, pants suck and the thought of keeping shoes on hurts me. I know in earlier weeks where I hugged my toilet more times than I’ve ever hugged anyone else in my life, I felt like I wanted to throw in the towel. But there’s one thing that helped get me through, knowing I had a little person relying on me to help her grow and that I had people in my life who were there for me.

Thank you to those who’ve often checked in to see how I was doing! I challenge you all to check on your pregnant friends more often. We might be ok, but there are some days we may not be and hearing from a friend could turn our day around!